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[16 Jan 2005|06:54pm] |
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sorry. i'm a bad, bad updater. but this is a bad journal. so when i get a new one i'll be better, i promise.
on saturday i went to zach's bar mitzvah, in new jersey. it was pretty fun, i got to see a lot of our family friends that i don't see a lot. his theme was syracuse university (since like, one parent of each family went to syracuse...and zach was like born with an obsession for the college. don't ask.). it was really cute...and it was a good party.
after that, sara and melissa slept over. steph was supposed to, but she had family night instead. we watched 12 episodes of the oc in one sitting. it was kind of pathetic. but still. it was fun. we stayed up until 5:30 this morning. and we were woken up at 11:30. so now i'm tired.
yeah that was boring. sorry. i need a new layout.
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[12 Jan 2005|08:24pm] |
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okay. so. i like this guy. buuuuuuuuuuuuuut as usual, he doesn't like me. he likes this girl. from his town. because we live in different towns. and i don't know what to do. i mean, i didn't have a chance with him and i know that, but...i don't know. i still like him. i think.
i need a new journal.
the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need.
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[11 Jan 2005|05:35pm] |
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since i'm failing out of spanish i had to get extra help today. and my fucking mom called the school because she's "concerned". right. i'm sure she is. so i get called into the office and tropper copper and mrs. b are like "SO. SPANISH" and i'm like "yeah. spanish." but whatever. they're bitches and i hate them, end of story.
that was kind of stupid...sorry. i'm really cold and i love my eyeliner. cause it's black and sparkely.
i don't know why i'm talking about all of this random stuff.
oh well.
i hate this journal. i really need to make a new one.
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[10 Jan 2005|06:52pm] |
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okay i'm sorry i haven't updated cause i know that i'm really really bad at this journal and i'm just really really bad at life too because there's something wrong with me and i don't know what it is cause i'm always upset and i just don't know why and i never have a reason for being so upset and i need to get help because i can't get help from my parents and i just don't know what to do and now i really need someone to make me a layout cause i hate this one and i'm hungry.
sorry. that was long and i rambled too much. but i hope you got the point..
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[05 Jan 2005|04:43pm] |
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this envelope will represent my heart.
i'll seal it, send it off and wish it luck with its depart.
this stamp will be every action and carry my affection.
across the air and land easy..
but should i trust the postage due
to deliver my heart to you?
sorry, i'm not really in the mood for really updating.
comment please...
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[04 Jan 2005|07:47pm] |
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i want to hate you half as much as i hate myself...
i hate love.
trying to see you forgetting about me...
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[02 Jan 2005|03:04pm] |
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happy new year everyone, and good riddance to '04. sometimes it was amazing, and other times it was terrible.
the highlight of my year was definitley the summer...i met so many amazing people, who i love with all my heart. i miss you all so much.
for new year's eve, melissa and joe (and his family) came over. it was fun...we did random stuff and watched the ball drop. i had no one to kiss this year, and i didn't last year either. i guess this is just how everything is going to be. melissa slept over, and we watched elf and went to sleep at around three. then i went back to her house for a new year's party, and hung out with melissa, rachael, and olivia. we walked down to baskin robbins...but it was closed so we had to go home ice cream-less haha. rachael gave me a piggy back ride for most of the way home...i couldn't walk because i was so tired. when we got back everyone was like leaving so we just went upstairs. then melissa, me, morgan, luca, and hayden all watched a cinderella story..ang omgzzz it was so cute i cried at the end...haha. then we went on the comptuer...hung out with morgan and luca, and went to sleep. i'm so tired now...and my parents are mad at me...
'05 has gotten off to a great start...
but on the bright side the bright eyes concert is in 23 days...and i lost my cell...again.
whatever. this was long and boring. sorry for wasting your time...
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[31 Dec 2004|01:55pm] |
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can someone help me with a layout...?
or you know, be generous to make me one?
because this one sickens me. i just don't like it.
if anyone decides to do this (please please please) i'll like, be forever grateful. or whatever<3
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[27 Dec 2004|05:59pm] |
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i'm in wyoming. it's fun. i guess.
i have a sunburn/windburn from skiing. and it hurts like a bitch.
i don't really know what else to say...
i hope everyone had a great christmas (if you celebrate)
and kwanzaa.
and hanukkah.
okay. i'm tired.
and i want a cookie.
maybe i'll update later this week, but i'm back in new york on the thirtieth. i don't know if i spelled thirtieth right.
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[23 Dec 2004|02:11pm] |
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and i give myself three days to feel better,
or else i swear i'm driving off a fucking cliff,
because if i can’t learn to make myself feel better,
then how can i expect anyone else to give a shit?
and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere,
just get me past this dead and eternal snow.
because i swear that i am dying, slowly but its happening.
and if there is a perfect spring that’s waiting somewhere
just take me there and lie to me and say it’s going to be alright.
its going to be alright, yeah you worry too much kid,
its going to be alright.
right...?♥
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[05 Dec 2004|06:51pm] |
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